You are not a princess and your life ain't a fairy tale.

Life's not perfect like in movies. You do not always have a happy ending. And you got to accept the fact that you are no exception.  It is raining heavy outside and I have always loved rain. I want to go out, scream loud and dance in the rain. But unlike in fairy tales, you don't always have that someone to dance with around. When the thunder is loud and scares the hell out of you, you do not always have someone wrap his arms around you and say 'it's okay, I am here' . When you see two love birds feeding each other at lunch, you just gulp down the food alone along with the fact that you are not among those lucky ones.  All you can do is wish you had wings so that you could go to  whenever you miss him; whenever you want to lay your head on his shoulder;  whenever you want him to hold your hands or  blame god for the distance.

When I was a kid,  whenever something exciting happened at school, I would run home to find mum waiting to ask how my day was and I would start babbling. Now when I come home, I can just hear the wind chimes tinkling in my room  waiting for me to come and close the windows. And even if something funny happened during the day, I just remember and chuckle to myself. You don't always have someone to listen to you. Sometimes you  have no other option than to be your own best friend.

When you are lonely ,you wish there was a friend who would come near you and let you know that she is there to wipe your tears if you cry;share your laughter with; drink a cup of coffee with;  scold you when you are wrong; remind you of who you are.  But life is such that, you don't always have the luxury of having  friends around  whenever you need . They are far away. But you have something which can give you a very good company at those times. Memories of you and them ; which has the power to make you smile on your gloomiest days. And that's all you have.

You just move on in life inspite of the fact that it is imperfect. You can't just discontinue living. You have to face the cruelty of time, of distance , of life. Your prince charming doesn't come riding on a horse to you whenever you need him because you are not a princess and your life ain't a fairy tale. 

Today was a movie day!

There were days during my first year when I wished those few holidays we got never came to end. But now, I have been on vacation for more than three months that it would be very greedy of me to ask god to extend this break more :D I had an amazingly great time at home and then another fulfilling week in kandy. I made memories with the people I love; memories that will keep them close to me. And I have become so used to having those special people around (Sharing things with mum, waiting for dad to arrive from office, fighting with nochu, watching tv together after dinner especially that serial on Sony television which even dad is fond of because it is something related to his daughter: something about doctors :D; sitting down to watch all kinds of  (seriously, all kinds of :D) movies with Tashi with the maggi she used to cook for me and a cup of coffee; the all night talks and eating KFC with  Sangay; talking about love with puja :D and making her cook ; listening to Kesang's laugh; cooking and eating with the two most amazing guys, pulling their legs, looking at the watch and waiting for someone to arrive, going for walks, getting scolded by best friends  ;)..blah blah blah). Everyone completed me. There was always something to look forward to for the day. They never gave me a chance to feel lonely, or bored. I felt loved, every moment. And now that I am here in Colombo,  it just feels like desert, like Tashi says! (Haha ) . Sigh ! I can't turn back the clock and be with them all the time. I can't quit what I have come here for. That's it. I got to accept the fact that life's not easy and it's not just me, it is difficult for everyone else too.

I dont know how I spent the last five days. But today was a movie day. I watched three movies in a row and all of them were worth watching: If only, Beastly and Texuatlity.

There are little things I learnt from each of them:

1) If only:  Do not wait for tomorrow to let someone know how much you love them . Show them and give them all the love you can. Who knows what tomorrow might bring. It showcased true love . I cried so much towards the end .  t got into my list of the best movies ever watched! :)

2) Beastly: The setting is high school days when all we worry about is how we look. It does not matter how we look on the outside. All that does is what is underneath, what is within :)

3) Textuality: One of the girl there is a blogger and she writes this as the story goes on. It made me smile somehow :)

Three things money can't buy -the right boy to share a 5$ coffee with
                                             -living the dream
                                             -...a leap of faith...

I am just done with dinner and my biscuit pudding which was DELICIOUS. I think that's enough for today. Waiting eagerly for tonight to end . We will find out why tomorrow :)

“I've got nothing to do today but smile.” ― Simon and Garfunkel

Someone rightly said that you don't have to look for a reason to be happy. Sometimes you just feel happy. And that's how I feel right now, . Yeah, content and good! Life seems all perfect. I have everything and everyone I need in life. Though they are far, they are inside my heart and that makes them even nearer to me. And it is very unusual for the ever- complaining Gitanjali to get this fulfillment. But I am sure when I get up tomorrow, this weird  happiness will be gone. So just to make sure I am happy today ( or that I was happy today) , I decided not to wait for tomorrow to write this down ( my very first post on my blog) .

Infact,  today was a good day. May be because I woke up smiling. And it attributes to that one person who brought it on my face early morning ! :)